Good Times... Noodle Salad....

I wrote a poem inspired by the book.

It's called "Shadows"

Innocence fade
A time there was to fit in
Everyone can fit in nicely
Yet fitting out is very painful

What do you do when you don't know what to do?
Reach out for the nearest hand
Or maybe not, though you know you should
Take care of it yourself, make yourself a promise

Never again will I fall
The promise comes like lifting shadows off a dream
Time to start a new day, a new life.
Yet even the sun goes down causing shadows to move

Perhaps the dream was like promising an ocean
And all I had is a drop of water
When the drop cannot find more, when does it evaporate
The shadows come down on the dream once again, once broken


Lifeless, decayed
Forever will I be but a beggar for my peace?
But even beggars eat the crumbs fed to them
Even dogs eat the crumbs from the masters table

By now, pay later
I'll bear the cross on judgement day
But who will be my companion?
Who will walk hand in hand with me through fields of fire?

I dug into the buffet
Taking what I could
But what I could take
Took what it could on me as well

If I fall to pieces
Who will fall with me?
Everytime I try to fall together
I just fall apart



Lifting shadows off a dream once again
Yet, what will happen if the sun goes down like all times before?
Is all life suffering?
When will I exit this cycle

Jesus, are you there?
Where was I, for you, when things were going as they ought?
Can I question your presence then? If things aren't as they ought
And I find a door slammed in my face?

Reach out for a hand to pull me from this cycle
To lift shadows off this dream for good
Yet, what happens when I'm pulled from the wreckage
And the nightmares follow me?

I dread the nights the most
Shadows move around me to cover my dream
Only this time, the shadows have covered the dream entirely
I cannot seem to reach for anyone

Here I am, totally wrapped in darkness
It was the dream that kept me this long
But I know now that it isn't the shadows I fear
It was what happens when you are totally in the shadows.

Because what is hidden within them is what finally killed me.